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alright
03:16
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i drink too much coffee at night cause it's the closest i can get to a buzz
i keep trying to read but my mind has just turned to mush
too distracted by my own thoughts to comprehend someone else's
even though my own thoughts are usually just a regurgitation of someone else's
the concept of death scares me more than i'd like to admit
i can't believe it used to feel welcoming, how did i end up like this
i've come to the conclusion that i don't need others for light
i've found peace in myself and i'll be alright
sometimes i get shaky cause everything's a little too loud
or my brain is laced with so much caffeine i hear a ringing sound
i have so many thoughts in my head that never make it out
funny how that's a metaphor for my own sense of being proud
the concept of death scares me more than i'd like to admit
i can't believe it used to feel welcoming, how did i end up like this
i've come to the conclusion that i don't need others for light
i've found peace in myself and i'll be alright
i'm still not okay, yet, i promise, i swear
but just like everyone else i'm doing it all to get there
my shaking habits leave me with no nails and i can't talk on the phone
and i get preoccupied with how easy it is to see my bones
the concept of death scares me more than i'd like to admit
i can't believe it used to feel welcoming, how did i end up like this
i've come to the conclusion that i don't need others for light
i've found peace in myself and someday
i'll be alright
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my own arms
02:34
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i'm trying to get better but god, it's so hard
when the only things there to comfort me are my own arms
the same arms that have pushed my clean skin south
and the same arms that refused to bring food to my mouth
i'm 17 and i know that's young but i must stop to wonder
i could've been gone three and a half years ago and that leaves me to ponder
what inside me has changed that's turned me for the best
was it the self-discovery that's left me barricaded from the rest?
pick one, they say, you can't chose more
there's only two, that's not singular
the kind of pain that this brings
is unequal to scraping knees
imagine scraping your whole body
pretty girls spend too much time at potties
everyone's encouraging, no one speaks of the dangers
be careful before you end up with less than jesus had in the manger
you won't have jesus, that's for sure
but then technically neither does anyone with the pronoun "her"
women weren't made to serve men
but even if that were the case where do the non binaries fit in?
this isn't about religion and i'm sorry i brought it up
back to the point, telling me i'm plural is worse than being stabbed in the gut
not that i know what that feels like, and hopefully i never will
i always hated taking that green and white pill
and i'm trying to get better but god, it's so hard
when the only things there to comfort me are my own arms
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d.d.
03:55
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it's hard to find a sense of purpose
when even in your favorite fantasy world you're seen as worthless
i've written entire songs across my skin
just trying to find where i fit in
(like an addict with a pen)
i never even realized i was growing up
but look at me now, 2 months from being an adult
and i know who i am, but no one knows my name
and if they did, i can't imagine the result
i've ran out in the rain just to feel alive
september 9th. 2015 i was trying to survive
how is it that i'm supposed to be unafraid of toil
but with any sign of conflict my body just recoils
i never even realized i was growing up
but look at me now, 2 months from being an adult
and i know who i am, but no one knows my name
and if they did, i can't imagine the result
"you'll come out alive" written on my thigh
the unbeatable balance of numb and scared, too lost to cry
i can't shake that 1 am feeling
it's better if i pretend this is healing
it's better if i pretend this is healing
it's better if i pretend this is healing
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it's 1 am and i know you're still awake
im just writing songs which is probably a mistake
i told myself it wouldn't be about you this time
instead of putty in your hands i'm more like slime
slipping through your fingers every time i try to hold on
you've always hated your fingers but i don't see what's wrong
besides the fact that i can't keep myself between them
i've lost track of how many times we've seen the end
with how we are right now i don't know why i'm worried
but it's 1:12 am and all these songs are pathetic and hurried
so I guess I'll take the time to tell you goodnight
and you're my universe and i wish you were in my sight
it's 1:20 why did i drink coffee
is it late, is it early
i wish i could write something that wasn't about you
but it seems that this is all that i can do
remember when i showed you off to my a.p. english class
have you ever gone a day without talking about cas
i only talk about michael so i guess im not one to speak
babe it's so late i miss you i should get to counting sheep
with how we are right now i don't know why i'm worried
but it's 1:12 am and all these songs are pathetic and hurried
so I guess I'll take the time to tell you goodnight
and you're my universe and i wish i could hold you tight
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